Saying Goodbye: A LOOK BACK AT 2019

Goodbye 2019 & Hello 2020!

Happy New Year! It’s been a whole two weeks since we bid farewell to last year and now, we’re half way done with the first month of 2020. How quick was all of that? It felt as if time is just passing by and I really can’t keep up anymore.

I’ve seen a lot of “2020, please be good to me” posts right before New Year begins and I gotta tell you I’m glad that I don’t share the same feelings as most of those people. I mean, I’m not saying I don’t want 2020 to be a good year for me, I’m so excited for it, but I feel like people post those stuff because 2019 wasn’t good for/to them and or that they weren’t able to achieve something that they hoped they would on that year. And gotta be honest, for me 2019 rocked. It wasn’t perfect, I didn’t become a millionaire (dang, I wish I did), I actually didn’t achieve some of the goals I set for myself, I had some ups and downs but it wasn’t that bad. To some they may think “if you didn’t achieve some of your goals then why the heck did 2019 rock?” but I guess it’s really how you see things or how you handle them. For me, it’s not really a bad thing but rather I think and feel as if these things happened for a reason. I know it’s super cliche of me to say that but I’ve been living with that mindset and I believe it with all my heart. Sometimes we set goals out of of wants and “pretend-needs” that we forget to assess the feasibility of it that’s why we end up being disappointed. I guess it comes with the fact that society has taught us that everything is at reach with a press of a button, you know what I mean? That thinking that everything comes easy?

Yes, 2019 rocked for me and it’s all because of the things that didn’t happen.

Looking back at my 2019 goals, one of it was me resigning from my current job and finding a better one before the year ends. It didn’t happen. Why? Because I wrote that beginning of 2019 when everything at work seemed to be not working for me. I wrote that when I was completely shell-shocked of how stressful my job was and how I wasn’t really making friends at work. And I’m so glad that that didn’t happen. Basically, I wrote that when I was too emotional to think with my brain or to be logical. Fast forward to this day, I just celebrated my one year anniversary to the same job I said I was leaving. I earned a lot of friends that I can call my work-family. I am happy with the work I have. The same job I said I will not be in come 2020. And this is just one of those things that I didn’t achieve and it’s ok. Imagine if I did resign, I wouldn’t have met the amazing people I’m currently working with and I wouldn’t be able to know what I really want my career path to be. Heck, I wouldn’t be able to reach a milestone – I’ve never had the chance to stay in a company longer than 10 months.

What I’m saying is, things may not have worked out as you’ve planned but plans tend to change. These plans were created probably because you were like me, stressed and emotional. That’s why it’s important for us to embrace the situation in front of us and see light in it. C’mon, let’s stop sulking or whining. Let’s maintain positivity and really reflect on why your plans didn’t work out the way you want them to. You’ll never know maybe you’re thinking way too hard of the situation and you’re forgetting that you’ve actually gained something so much better than you’ve expected.

But enough with deep thoughts. Let me take you down memory lane and share with you everything that happened to me last year.

2019 saw me travel the Land of the Rising Sun – JAPAN! It’s one of those countries I never thought I’d fall in love with. I spent almost an entire week there and I was craving for more. God knows I love Japanese food (because that’s how you prove your love for Japan, right?) so being able to actually eat it in the country it’s from was a whole new level of experience. I was able to visit 3 areas in Japan – Osaka, Kyoto and Kobe.

Osaka was were we stayed the entire trip in a really cozy hostel specifically smack right at Denden Town (where the front desk person change everyday. No joke) and just travelled to the two areas by train. That place is amazing. I’ve actually never felt real coldness in temperature (room with AC doesn’t count) until I stepped outside of the airport. I completely regretted wearing nothing but thin stockings, shorts and light sweater shirt in a single digit temperature. I’ll never under estimate a country weather like ever.

I was able to eat authentic Takoyaki (those round balls made of batter with octopus and veggies inside) which I used to hate because of a past experience and now it’s my favourite snack. Our Japan trip consisted of lots of walking in heeled boots, catching up trains, eating ramen and tonkatsus, SHOPPING and seeing all the amazing spots in each areas. I got to say, I can’t wait to go back there.

2019
2019

Aside from traveling to places, I was able to be a part of (finally) a community of influencers, get to work with brands and even attend influencer events. I think this is one of the highlights of my last year because I’ve been wishing this to happen. I kept mum about it and only told a little to my boyfriend when the community was deciding to make me a part of them partly because I wasn’t confident enough and mostly because I don’t want to jinx it. I know, it sounds a little childish but I wanted it so bad that I don’t want anything to ruin it. And lo and behold, I became part of PhInfluencers. It was surreal. It felt like all my hardworks of writing and trying to create better content finally become fruitful because I got noticed. I think at the back of my mind I was just waiting for a little bit of validation from other people, most especially from brands, before I can finally fully address myself as a blogger or content creator. I know I’m not the only who feels this way.

There are so many things that have happened, experiences I’ve encountered and skills I’ve learned last year that I wasn’t planning nor expecting but enormously thankful for completing my last year. But one thing I defnitely learned from last year was always be grateful and appreciative of even the smallest things. If I didn’t do those things, I guess I’ll be one of those “2020, please be good to me”. Anyway, I hope 2020 has even more greate things installed for me (I already received a great news!) because I’m so ready to embrace them.

Was your 2019 good, too?


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